Rant #3: Differentiate Between a Want and a Need

Personally, I feel that people have to learn to differentiate between a want and a need. We may want everything but we do not need everything.

I'm extremely exhausted from all the bullcr@p that I've been through because people just can't differentiate it. Sometimes I get this feeling that I wish that I could live my own life without having to care about other people. But realistically that is just impossible. It is unfortunate to think that we can't choose who we want in or out of our life. Some of them are permanently there, whether we like it or not. And I don't like it.

I wish my father was still around. At least then the burden isn't as heavy as it is right now.

I just can't comprehend how people can live life so naively thinking that there are still plentiful of money, when honestly there are none left. While they enjoy the extravagant life, others have to suffer silently. I'm done being silent. Why should I be the one having to suffer continuously while the rest just enjoy their life? I started working when I was barely sixteen, and from there onwards every holiday means working. And now that I'm working full-time with a very minimal pay, I've to share my salary with people too despite having a long list of things I've to pay like rental, loan repayment, bills, petrol, food and drinks, and movies once in a while. Why should I or anyone else be responsible for their monthly expenditure too? If they're handicap I would have understand but even then there are many handicaps that go to work too.

The worst part of it all is that they can't differentiate a want and a need, despite me telling and educating them over and over again. Sure, I have a long list of things that I want but in that long list there are just a handful that I need, and I don't get things that I want but not need unless I have the extras. However, for them whatever they want are exactly what they think they need, when they don't need it!

Like having a big birthday party for a one year old, that is not a need that is a want. No one year old need a big, fancy birthday party because if we're being honest they wouldn't remember a single thing about their first birthday party. Sure they have pictures to reflect back on what they had for their first birthday but is it really necessary to have a big birthday party when obviously you can't afford it? I'm sure the child would be equally as happy and bless just knowing they got to celebrate their first birthday without it having to be big and fancy. Truthfully I can't even remember anything from my toddler days. If you do remember yours, share with me. And also do you think it is necessary to have a big and fancy one year old birthday party?

I wouldn't stand by seeing anyone exploiting the kindness from my godfather. He has burden of his own and he still never fails to put others' wants before his own needs. Sure, his wife isn't as great but you're no different. I'm just amaze that he can still worries about you when you nor his wife ever gave a sh!t fuck about his livelihood. It is just extremely sad to think people actually are so self-centered when he has been nothing but benevolent towards everyone.