Long Break

So I just realized the last time I was actually maintaining this blog and keeping it alive was back in September 2013, that's like almost few months shy to two years.

In that short period of time (honestly two years aren't that long), my life has went through a complete overhaul. I've graduated with a Bachelor of Commerce (Accounting and Finance) degree from University of Melbourne, which definitely was one of the highlight moments in life. I've moved back to Kuching right after graduation because my godfather didn't think staying or applying for PR in Australia was a good idea, I wish he at least let me try though. According to him, many of his friends' children tried numerous times but their applications were rejected. So he didn't want to risk losing a lot of money if my application was rejected.

Like my life before Melbourne, it sucks. To be honest, I dread living in Kuching for many reasons and mostly it has to do with people. It is after all a small city, where entertainment is close to none, internet line is crap, and life just sucks in Kuching, for me at least.

I had my first job as an account assistant, and to be honest it was a complete nightmare! It pays peanuts and the tasks were completely ridiculous for an undergrad. I'd think it was cater more towards High School leavers rather than an undergrad. In Kuching, employers are not concern about qualifications. Their concern is more towards the number of years of experience that one has. For example, a girl with an SPM certificate and one year of work experience would have gotten a better job than a girl with an undergrad certificate with no experience at all. I mean, what the heck?! They're giving an undergrad doing a job so easy that it makes me cringe on why did I even bother wasting my time and energy studying to get myself a damn undergrad certificate all the way from University of Melbourne (Australia's finest University).

And if you think my life couldn't get any worst than that, you're wrong! To think a person would never betray you, that thought couldn't be more naive and stupid. A once very dear friend of mine decided to cross that line, where there is no turning back or looking back ever. He thinks that he has given me more than I could in my entire life give him, boy, boy, what a foolish thought that can be? I gave him everything I could and I sacrificed everything I have for this boy. What the heck was I even thinking?! He has the audacity to ask me to return everything that he gave me. Yeap a guy that doesn't even know how to spell s-h-a-m-e or probably wouldn't even know what it means. Oh the worst part was he can't differentiate between giving and borrowing. He wants his things back, that's fine with me, after all it is worthless to me. Why would I keep anything at all that reminds me of my worst nightmare? It isn't like I can't afford it on my own. And it was only fair that he pays me back the money that he borrowed, which was close to RM17,000. His mother (the first woman ever in my entire life) called me rude. What? Seriously, what?! To compare myself with her son, boy I think I would win the award for best child of the year, or century, or probably even lifetime. I used to think she was a very nice, decent lady but now I'm just left disgusted! She wants to support her son, that's fine with me, but calling me rude and scolding me, what the heck?! If I need any kind of life lessons, I do have a mother and a godfather. I don't need a life lesson from a woman who can't seem to even teach her own children what manners are. To make it worst, he didn't pay, and escalated to a police case, yes his mother, or should I said "rich" brother in-law made a police report against me, saying that I "extort" his mother in-law and brother in-law for money. What the f?! ME, extort? Are you for real now? I may not be living in a fancy house, driving a fancy car, wearing fancy brands, or own a fancy business but me extort? You got to be kidding! I was merely asking for what he has borrowed, which I did record down the conversation, in which he did agreed to pay (obviously he didn't!). When it comes to talking, he's definitely at the top, when it comes to action, he's last to none. So the lesson that I've learned from this is, if you ever in your life want to borrow money to people (family, friends, whoever), don't you ever for a second forget to draft out a simple contract of the borrowing and have both parties signed the document and keep that document, you will never know when it comes in handy. And that lesson itself cost me RM17,000. It's more expensive than one unit of subject in Melbourne University, if you're ever wondering. The most expensive lesson in my life, for now. The audio recording, according to the police and my mother's lawyer, is useless in Malaysia's court. So what the heck?! In Malaysia's court, you need written agreement, any other form of agreement such as audio recording, video recording, verbal consent, etc are all of no use. I was devastated. It was like a huge slap in the face. But life has to go on...

And I move on.

Right now, I'm the happiest I've ever been in my life. Well, not really because Melbourne was the best time of my life. If ever I get to turn back time, it would be my time spent in Melbourne. The city, culture, and lifestyle there are just everything I love and more. Now, is the second best. I'm currently working as an internal audit based in Miri (another small city) but I get to travel bi-monthly to Ho Chi Minh, Manila, and Taiwan, so it isn't that bad. Plus, it is more intellectual compared to my first job. Aside from that, I'm studying part-time for my professional certificate, CPA Australia to be exact. I'm taking my sweet, sweet time to complete it. Haha... I'm in no rush for this one. Oh and I'm also learning to read and write Chinese, with the help from MDBG, and Google. Hopefully, I can master it by the end of the year, or latest mid-next year. If I'm able to master the basics, I'll be rewarding myself with a trip to China during their winter season. I absolutely love winter and never understand why people don't like it.

So before I end my post, if ever you feel like you can't do it or go on, just push yourself harder. There is nothing you can't achieve in life. Do not quit because hard work and all the shit you go through will pay off. If I was to give up living my life because of my worst nightmare or because everything doesn't seem to go my way, I'd probably still be going no where and be more useless than a rubbish collector.

That pretty much sums up my life in the past two years.